Re: trying to find myself..
moondance
peter@hornbein-benish.org
Fri Feb 23 05:32:08 2001
I didn't find your message at all dumb.  I had been lost for a long while, searching organized religion after organized religion.  What I found struck me as a bizarre, patriarchal, punishing God who didn't seem to me to be terribly loving.  As was said in the movie Dogma, "a God who punishes us from a 1000 years ago."  Plus, when I looked at things like the Tao Te Ching and books like The Tao of Physics, I saw the interconnectedness between Nature and Philosophy.  This realization got me started down the Wiccan Path,  the "Path of Light."  For me, this wasn't too strange as I've always leaned toward paganism/naturism (I always believed in fairy folk, magick, etc.).  For one to reject the newer, monotheistic religions is understandable to me and probably every other practitioner of the Craft.  I'll admit it was hard at first, and I still have a thought every now and then about the rejection of "God."  However, this is reconciled by my belief that they're all really the same God/Force, and I think of Cerridwen or Brigit and the positive changes they've brought..  I guess the hard part is the getting away from what we've been taught all our lives:  "Thou shalt not have any other Gods before me."  etc.*p*Wicca, because of its roots and history, can be pursued as a Solitary or in a Coven--as it is sometimes euphemistically called, a "Circle" or an "Open Circle," or even a "Circle Group."  I am a Solitary and rather like it that way because of the freedom it allows me.  Through my local Metaphysical book store, I've made friends who have offered advice and this helps.  An interesting note, as one enters the Wiccan community, one discovers that there are a LOT of us out there!*p*Find a Metaphysical bookstore, tell 'em you would like to start down the path and I'm sure they'll hook you up with some good books.*p*Blessed Be!*p*Moondance*p*~DrewSylla^420~ wrote,*br*: *br*: hehe just a warning, this is gonna be a DUMB message*br*:*br*: I'm not even sure this is the place I should be posting it *br*: actually*br*:*br*: I've just noticed no matter what problems I've had in my *br*: life..and there are always a lot...in the end it always *br*: comes back to ME. ya know? And what the hell do I do about *br*: it? Get drunk all the time, cut, throw up, etc...I hate *br*: myself too..I looked up "Spirituality" kidn of out *br*: of boredom, but it had me thinking I need to start looking *br*: toward some sort of higher power, something beyond myself. I *br*: need to "save" myself, basically*br*: I don't go for organized religion, so christianity is out, *br*: but I've always been intrigued by wicca. I've read up on it *br*: a few times, but I don't know much.*br*:*br*: I guess I'm asking for yall to tell me what got you started, *br*: kind of..what was that point where you felt something that *br*: inspired you enough to get into this stuff..maybe something *br*: about self discovery...I don't know...later*br*
trying to find myself..
~DrewSylla^420~
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Thu Feb 15 00:00:58 2001